✨❤️ Amy “Jade” Winehouse taught me how to be brave, to stand tall when I couldn’t at all, she taught me how to strut when I was going through the worst moments of my life, she lunged at dudes that came too close when I didn’t have a voice, she was a sous chef, running buddy and even though her exterior seemed tough, she was the sweetest being I’ve ever met. I watched her soul leave us as we held on to her in the hospital last night, I wish I could say that this is the first time I’ve seen a soul leave a body, but it’s not, the one thing I wish to say to you all is to keep feeding your soul and others souls, our exteriors are just shells, and even the “toughest” of the tough - have hearts of pure amazement and gold. We leave today to get married in Asheville, North Carolina and girl I’m going to be howling at the moon for you, you’re forever my sweet girl Jade ✨❤️❤️❤️ #VBintheCItY #jade #amywinehouse #pitbullLove #bestillmyheart❤️
💥💕July, I’ve waited three years for this wedding month 💍. On the outside I’m still my blonde, bubbly, high heel wearing, ass kicking self, on the inside I have transformed🔥. To say I’ve lived 9 lives, is an understatement. In the past three years I’ve seen my soul literally grow🌱. I’ve learned to not be afraid, to go after love, to change states and states of mind, to respect myself, to be myself In all stages even when im not smiling, I’ve also learned to have my guard up - to also not be afraid of being vulnerable and letting that same wall down - for the right people ( which is so hard for me ). I’ve had to learn to trust all over again - well hell I’d even say for the first time, I’ve learned to keep practicing the act of focus even in the middle of a chaotic world, and open a business @vadagallery_ as well as plan a wedding within 3 months of eachother. I’ve never had so much on my plate, ever, but I’ve also never had so much passion and life. No longer do I just exist, I am living baby. I’m ever so thankful for everything that is coming - and in motion. My biggest obstacle is reminding myself to not stop believing in growth and the kindness of others and @fdiedling and my circle help instill that. With everything I’ve seen, everything I’ve been through, it would be easy to not see the light - but I’m finally seeing it. The peace that I keep chasing, is finally in reach. To say I haven’t had crushing crying spells of fits along this journey + or moments where cocktails couldnt even save the frustration ( go figure), would be laughable - I have, and thankful my fiancé ( soon to be husband in 22 days ) and my close circle again, kept me not just afloat but helped me be not afraid to be me. I’ve learned that I can still be sweet and a business woman, a faithful lover, friend, sister, daughter and innovator. I’ve learned that what I wear sometimes does give off a different vibe than what’s going on in the inside, but I love what I wear and I love that people literally either try to get to know me or judge me - and let me tell you - I now know which ones matter there. I’ve learned more importantly to L O V E 💕 #VBintheCITY #summer #transformation #love
